March 25, 2009

Pain.



I have cramp so bad I want to cry. I don't know what's wrong but I think I might be passing gall stones. It hurts so bad.


But then I hate myself for feeling so bad. I got that from my parents. You're not sick. Suck it up. Don't be such a crybaby. So then I hate myself for feeling bad, which makes me want to cut myself some more.


I hate my life sometimes.

March 16, 2009

Childhood Halloween Costume.

This is a picture of me one Halloween when I was a kid. I am supposed to be a caveman ...




Every time I see this photo I feel like such a fucking idiot, me with the big glasses and the stupid look on my face.


People have no idea how much I hate myself.