February 25, 2010
The State Of My Heart.
She just broke my heart.
She waited until I was at my weakest, until I was dealing with so much pain already from my fucked up life, until my grandparents died and my body was broken and my parents stopped talking to me and my work life was all screwed up and I was robbed at gunpoint and scarred for life, until I was physically and mentally exhausted. She waited until I was at my absolute lowest point in my LIFE to breke my heart.
So how to I try and deal with my sudden single life? By making fun of her. By verbally slapping her. By trying my best to constantly cut her down.
But that's only making her mad at me.
But for the life of me I do not want to stop hurting her.